testing :)

PART TIME MODEL :)

Assalamualaikum semua .. hihihii .. actually gambar-gambar ni da lama save dalam laptop .. bila upload kat facebook ade yg kritik and ramai yang support .. thank u so much pada yang support .. time ni anis jd model membe,yaya tuk pertandingan fotography .. model suke-suke je .. anis minat modelling and makcik  pon ade suggest tuk anis jd model tp anis tolak .. masa depan anis jauh ag .. bukan mudah jadi model ni .. penat jugak kan .. anis paling xtahan makeup ue .. anis x cke pkai makeup sbenarnya .. anis cke natural look .. more nice right .. location : pontian johor ..

                                                   

                                       

                                       

                                                   

muka agak ganas disini ye :P hahahaahha .. btw, pas photoshoot, anis cepat2 tukar baju n makeup sbb nk pegi open house uma kawan .. hihihii .. muka anis gatal2 la pkai makeup .. x tahan .. hopefully everyone enjoy see this .. anis ni cke simple2 ajer .. so t ade cite baru anis write in my blog ok .. promise me, I'll story about something fun and nice to see .. I love travelling .. thanks for seeing my blog .. love u all :)

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kami berseronok menghilangkan stress .....

KENANGAN :)

Semalam kitaorang pergi berjalan-jalan jelajah melaka .. jelajah la sangat kan .. hahahahaha ... okla , disini anis ade sertakan gambar .. so lets picture told the story .. enjoy it :)

 masa ni makan kat parit buaya,muar .. nurul datang uma anis .. hehehee ..

makan semua :)

see ! anis buat muka .. hahahahaa .. abis kne mara dgn nurul 

ngeee  :)

kita nak kuar ! tunggu sein, aini and tempe dtg amik ktaorg .. 

bosan2, snap kat blakang kolej ..

dua2 muka baru bgn tido .. hahahahaa .. 

nurul gonjol .. hahahahaha ..

time ni nurul asik termenung jer otw g dataran pahlawan ..

so anis ajak dia snap .. trus segar .. hahahahhaa..

 mata kuyu ku .. hahahahaha .. pnat asik senyum jer :)

 time ni nga gelak2 kat dalam kete .. 

so ade smgat ckit nk senyum .. ngee :)

 nurul dan aini .. bermain disco roller skate kat dataran pahlawan,melaka ..

syok sgt3 .. anis ajar sein main .. hahhahahaa .. ksian dia .. tp dia da pandai ckit da ..

 nurul posing .. hohohoo .. pnuh dengan lampu disco ..

 nurul again .. first2 dlu dia xpandai main .. berkat usaha dia and anis ajar dia ckit2, sekarang da pandai ..

seronok dia main .. heheheheee ..

 ni la aini .. model part time .. cantik au dia ni .. hihihiii ..

dia da pandai main .. laju jer jalan dia ..

 keadaan di dalam disco roller skate ..

 again :)

 selepas mkn mcd, kita bergambar ..

 supergirl :)

 nurul, aini and atiqah @ tempe

 yuyul gonjol :p

 at pantai puteri :)

 posing3 :)

 kami pula :)

 kami bersama lagi :)

 ainiey si cantik :)

 what???

 the same picture rite .. actually nga setting contrast mane yg ok ..

hahahahaaha ..

nurul fatin atikah :)

Semua ade dalam gambar ni kecuali sein .. hahahahaha .. sein pemalu la .. jadi dia jela yang amik gambar kami .. pape pon enjoy sangat kuar semalam.. kenangan la .. hihihiii .. smoga next sem kite jumpe ag .. love u all .. sygg korunk sgt3 .. :)

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bila engkau ungkapkan itu, aku menangis ......

SELAMAT BERTUNANG

Mungkin ramai yang xtau mengenai hubungan kita .. ramai yang anggap kita kawan tp hakikat sebenar, kite lebih dari seorang kawan .. bermula pandang pertama, aq dapat rasa kau lelaki yang baik .. maka, bermulalah kisah kita memulakan cinta kontrak .. cinta selama 2 minggu tanpa heart feeling .. kita lalui mcm2 bersama .. engkau isi hatiku dengan tingkah lakumu yang sempoi dan bersahaja .. tapi, perlu aku ketahui, hatimu telah dimiliki .. aku tahu engkau mempunyai dia, tp atas dasar kawan, aku still melanjutkan cinta kontrak kita .. kerana kini aku sudah mengerti, kau lakukan itu untuk tidak membuat hati aku kosong dan sunyi .. terima kasih awak ..

Perkenalan kita hanya sekadar teman biasa .. bertemu dan berkenalan .. tp tidak ku sangka, nombor telefon kamu sama seperti nombor yang aku mimpi .. ya ! tidak salah lagi .. masa itu aku sunyi .. setelah ditinggalkn teman lelaki tanpa alasan yang kukuh, aq mula memberontak .. kehidupan aku makin liar .. aku hilang arah .. pada suatu malam, aku bermimpi, ada seorang atok tua menyapa ku dan memberikan aku no telefon mu .. mungkin ramai yang tidak mengerti tapi itulah hakikat yang sebenar .. dia adalah orang yang aq cari selama ini .. Ya Allah, kebetulan apa ini .. aq masih tidak mengerti ..

Hari demi hari, waktu demi waktu, tamat sudah kontrak kita .. akhirnya, kita berpisah dan menjadi kawan biasa .. tp 24/6 kita menjadi pasangan kekasih .. ingat lagi, sebelum aku sambung belajar, kita pergi jalan2 .. kau selalu cakap 'jangan curang dengan aku au, aku sayang kau' .. aku selalu ketawa bila kau cakap mcm tu .. hihihiii .. kelakar aku dengar .. aku kan budak baik .. x pandai nak curang la .. cinta mula berputik, aku cintakan dia .. kini, segalanya berakhir .. awak sekarang sah menjadi tunangan orang .. saya kecundang .. kenapa awk buat saya mcm ni?? sampai hati awk ..

Mula-mula tu memang x dapat terima tp sekarang saya da redhakan segalanya .. tapi aku minta maaf, selepas engkau, aku x boleh mencintai orang lain .. hati aku tetap untuk kau .. cinta aku, jiwa aku .. aq sedar sekarang, kau bukan milik aku lagi .. aku sedey, tp aq pendamkan .. aku rindu kisah kita dulu .. aku doakan kau bahagia bersama dia .. aku redhakan segalanya .. tapi setiap masa, aku rindu kenangan kita bersama .. kerana kaw, aq masih disini ..

Hari ini, kita masih bergurau senda lagi .. tapi bila kau ungkap ayat, 'gatal ea ko, curang dgn aq' aq jadi cdey dan menangis .. teringat kisah kita .. hahahahaha .. aku tetap sayangkan kau .. bila kau kata 'If he was your boyfriend never let it go' aku jadi sentap .. kau la pakwe aku .. tp aku da lepaskan semuanya .. untuk kebahagiaan kau kelak .. hargailah dia baik-baik ye ...

Sehingga kini, kita masih berkawan kan .. sebab kau la sahabat aku .. aku sayang kau beb ! apa-apa hal aq akan cerita kat kau .. thanks a lot .. aku akn hargai persahabatan kita .. semoga perhubungan ini kekal sampai bila-bila .. 

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kenapa jadi begini ;(

Sampai hati awak ...

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni anis nak story ckit pasal anis.. maaf pada yang terasa .. anis x tulis crita ni bkait rapat ngan sesapa .. anis jatuh hati kat someone yg da lama kejar2 anis .. xtau mcmana bleh ade prasaan tu ag .. kdg2 anis pon xpham .. nak dipendekkan crita,anis memg suka dia .. tp ade 1 hal anis xcke .. die tiba2 berubah .. knape awk jd mcm ue ea ?? sampai hati awk .. thanks utk semuanya .. 

knape awk layan sya mcm pmpuan murahan .. sy ingt awk x mcm ue .. sy tau dulu sy jahat, sy nakal, tp npe awk bleh pertikaikan cinta sy pada awk? knape sy perlu pertaruhkan badan sy utk awk? ape salah sy pada awk .. sy nak berubah jadi baik .. sy xkn ulang kesilapan lama sy ue .. utk ape sy trus sesat jika jalan Allah ade depan mata sy .. saya rindu awk yg dulu .. awk buat sy menangis ;(

masa ue anis direct msj BFF anis .. ngadu pasal pkra ni .. then, dia ajak bncg kat luar .. mlm ue kami lepak kat muar .. bincg ape yg perlu anis tau .. Ya Allah, byk dosa yg aq da lakukan .. anis minta maaf .. bukan niat anis utk mainkan perasaan lelaki .. anis jd mcm ue sbb lelaki cke mainkan perasaan anis .. anis bukan kaki jantan .. anis just cke bkwan je .. salah ke anis nk bkwn .. knape perlu ada dgki  pd anis .. anis anggap korunk sume sbgai kawan, knape perlu ade dendam dalam aty korunk .. anis minta maaf pada yg cke anis, yg anis xlyan .. anis bukan mudah utk bcinta .. anis x cke bcinta main2 .. anis nk satu perhubungan yg serius .. anis sygkan Allah ..

semakin hari, semakin sedih .. mcm2 dugaan dtg .. anis ni hina sgt ker ?? knape perlu anggap anis mcm ue .. klu salah anis, bgtau jela .. anis akan bkwn ngan lelaki ue bila dia x sentuh mengenai seks .. ble lelaki ue da mule menyayah, anis akn pergi trus dr dia .. tu prinsip anis .. ag1, klu memg btol cke kat anis, jmpela ibu and ayh anis .. anis redha akan ape yg akan blaku .. tp skali laki ue bhong anis, anis xkn pcya lelaki ue smpai ble2 .. anis pon harap anis dapat lelaki yg baik2 , yg dpt trima anis seadanya .. semoga segalanya dipermudahkan .. amin ..

-THE END-

I miss you

RINDU ITU MASIH BERTAKHTA DI DALAM HATI, CINTA ITU MASIH BERNYAWA DI DALAM DIRI

Aq da janji jd aq kne tepati .. dia berbisik di telingaku, jangan tinggalkan aq ye :) .. dan aq jawab ye .. entah knape, kerana dia aq tade perasaan kat lelaki lain .. skrg baru aq sedar jodoh bukan milik kita jd aq teruskan hidup untuk capai cita-cita aq .. sebagai seorg teman, sahabat , sudah semestinya akan merasa sedih bila orang kita syang bersama org lain .. bagi aq, kesedihan aq sudah tamat .. dan skrg, aq kne blaja bgkit semula .. sedih sgt .. kerana aq kuatkan hati, aq jadi seperti dulu kala ..hari2 aq bahagia tp hati aq menagis kesedihan .. aq xnk lari lagi .. kali ni aq nk hadapinya ..

setiap kali berhadapan dgn die, hati aq berdegup kencang .. tangan aq menggigil kesejukan .. masa tu aq nak menangis depan dia .. Ya Allah, betapa aq rindu akn dirinya .. sbb dia aq jd seorg yg kuat .. aq nk kuat mcm dia .. redha dgn segala kegagalan dan percaya Allah sentiasa  ada bersama umatnya .. kini, hati aq tertutup utk semua lelaki ..klu bleh aq nk tgu dudanya .. tp aq fikir baik aq blaja btol2 dan sambung blaja kat luar negara .. kerana itu yg terbaik utk aq melarikan diri .. kerana cinta, aq tewas .. baru aq pham ape artinya cinta .. cinta aq hanya utk kaw seorang .. 

Allah menciptakan manusia berpasang-pasangan .. setiap manusia ada pasangan .. jadi hargailah dia yang ade di depan mata sbelum terlepas mcm aq .. 

-aq pasrah, aq redha-

-tiba masanya cari teman pengganti-

Tonight, I let myself fall ;(

This is me .. love let someone I love the most go and now I'm feel worse .. GOD forgive me :( I have to because they're not mine anymore .. that night, I'm crying and  crying and crying .. my study messing and I let my tears fell down .. all night, all day I'm crying .. what should I do to make you be mine .. and now, I'm gone .. oh ! my world like dizzying and I take my pill so finally I feel a sleep .. hey dear, I'm dreaming about you .. why your face like that ?? why you look so dumb and sad .. are u okey honey?? but it is a dream .. In my real world, I can't say that to  you , I can't touch you anymore because you belong to someone .. hey dude ! I miss you .. I want see you and say I miss  you .. why you leave me ??

and I said Astagfirullahalazim .. don't be like this anis .. you shouldn't say that .. let them go .. just go on with your study .. and then, I had fever almost 2 weeks .. I miss you .. I have bought something for you .. here ! a gift .. wow ! I can belief I bought you that .. In my life, I've never bought gift for a men .. hahahaha .. first time dude .. I hope you like it .. and we're best friends forever right ?? and so .. I will always love you as a friends :)

My name is Nurul Anisah bte Ngadiman

Love is killed, smile is antidote

smile can cure any disease and make our life brighter ! yuhuuuu .. make your life beautiful because it can make you more beautiful .. think positive and be more open minded .. don't stressed your life and make a healthy life .. by the way, my name is like I typed there .. In malacca, they call me anis while in Johore, they call me nisa .. I prefer use both name so u all can call me whatever as long as it nice to heard .. My life is so complicated .. my principle, don't bother  your study with your personal problem .. put away your personal thinking when study .. let it flew through the air .. make your life simple and nice :)

as a human, nobody can regardless from problems right ?? same with me .. so many problem have, so many conflict have and I feel like want to die .. Astagfirullahalazim .. quickly express  yourself if you think about that .. tested that given by Allah is for our goodness .. He want us learn how to life in difficult way .. every problems have it own solution .. Alhamdulillah, I can through it with iman .. that is my strength .. Allah is the Great .. 

Anis..... some of kindly simple name which means soft but behind there has its high strength .. to be someone like me is not easy as people can see .. no one knows my problems .. they only know when I told them .. my friends always call me 'sayur' because I'm quite soft enough .. people bullied me as they like .. so do I care ?? they can do whatever they want do but when my patience more than the limit, here you go .. you will regret .. hahahahahhaa .. 

I love making friends and travel around the world .. If I have much money, i want travel one Malaysia and I love Paris .. Eiffel Tower is my dream .. but I know, I can't go there as reason I'm not feeling well .. there's something I keep  a long time ago .. what I know, I want make everyone proud of me when I was gone .. hey girls ! I miss u all damn much .. lets set a date ..love u all .. don't forget me k .. I will miss them inside of my heart .. because of them I still alive here ..

anis is my nickname .. nisa is my nickname too .. I love that name .. I want be a good girl ..for you, I'll survive .. I hope you will happy then :)

-missing miss-

When I Be Someone :)

In this world, I was born in a good family .. my mom so fierce, my dad so kind .. I'm grateful born in this family .. when I was small, my life not as rich as now .. but my dad never disappointed me with his eager want his family life easily and happy .. I love when my dad pamper me since I was young until now .. mom and dad are my everything .. when someone told bad about my family, I'll punch them .. they deserve that kick from me .. I had that idiot thing  happen .. sorry for those who got punch and slap from me .. serve your right ! when I was in standard school, my friends like insult me .. they always said I'm a chicken seller .. so, am I care ! as long as it is HALAL against ALLAH'S rule ..just go to hell with your stupid statement dude ! finally what he get from me, a slap from me with full of my energy .. hahahahhahahaa .. I love when you look surprised .. so cute you know .. like chic ! 

when I was in primary school, urghhhh ! I hate my primary school .. doesn't like it !!!!!

now I'm study in University .. Praise to Allah, I be a student again .. thanks to my parents always pray for my success and I'll make sure they will proud of me one day with my graduation .. huuuaaaa !! I love them much3 ... no boys, no love, no cry .. I want be myself .. daddy and mummy, don't forget to search my Mr. Right .. hihiii .. I hope our life will be happy forever and ever until Jannah .. Insyaallah .. and I will be a good daughter of En. Ngadiman and Pn. Hasimahyon .. 

-THE END-

SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW ..

... wish u were here ...

I wish u were here with me today, tonight, tomorrow, now and forever .. I have waited for you for the longest time and I wish we will had happy ending .. I don't know my feeling towards you .. I don't know why I eagerly want you .. It is I'm crazy of you ?? I don't know .. I'm confuse right now .. What are your feeling towards me ?? Am I that u love ?? I really love you .. But I can't tell you .. I know u love somebody else .. 

From now, I'll always waiting for you even one day I'll hurt .. I always pray that u'll be mine  one fine day .. I wanna be happy with you forever until Jannah .. U know my heart always  want u be my side .. make me smile is your passion .. When u don't pick up my phone , answer my messages, I feel lonely , lost and sad .. Why should I had that feeling ?? I don't understand about this feeling .. I couldn't find the answer ..

Hope is my last wish .. hope that u'll find me in your heart sooner or later .. I'll wait for you .. someone that I love deep in my heart ..

Ya Allah,aq bersyukur ..

        Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Semua :)
Bersyukur kita masih lagi bernyawa di dunia ini .. masih mampu menyambut bulan penuh kesyukuran bersama yang tersayang .. tentulah ibu bapa kita gembira dapat sambut puasa sama-II anak-anaknya .. itulah ayah saya .. walaupun sibuk,dia tetap jemput saya kat UITM MELAKA ptg td .. memg tharu gler la .. sbb ibu imform td ibu yang akan jemput sy sbb ayah busy tp x sangka la ayh pon ada skali .. happy sgt3 .. terima kasih ayah .. 


Di bulan yg pnuh mulia ini,sy nak mohon maaf kalau ada buat salah dalam sedar atau pon x kan .. manusia sentiasa buat silap .. maafkan kite ye .. ngee~~ smoga mndpt berkat dr Allah .. aminn ..

pahit mana kesakitan itu akan aq telan :)

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku , jika ini senyuman terakhir aku , biarlah menjadi senyuman yg terakhir buat tatapan sahabat yg paling aq sayangi serta ahli keluargaku .. sesungguhnye aku tak mampu menolak segala ketentuan yg telah ditakdirkan utkku .. :(

Senyuman ini khas untuk korunk sume :) aq syg korunk ketat2 .. aq mara korunk sbb aq syg .. aq tegur korunk sbb aq nk btolkan keadaan .. slama aq hdup , ade pahit ade manisnye .. yg pahit aq telan yg manis aq bt kenangan .. kdg2 aq asik tpkir , da smpai ke ajal aq ni ? ye , waktu utk aq da singkat .. tp aq slalu bdoa smoga Allah pnjgkan umur aq .. ramai org cakap aq pmpuan yg kuat tp hati aq lembut kdg2 .. mencintai die dlm hdup aq mrupakan 1 kesalahan .. tp aq redha .. cinta aq ikhlas utk org yg benar2 nak bkenalan dgn aq :)

Aq syg semua kawan2 aq , always by my side .. korunk , aq minta maaf klu ade sketkn aty korunk .. aq x sengaja .. aq nak jge korunk , aq xnk korunk tersesat .. nak enjoy , enjoy la tp jge batas .. remember , Allah see what we do .. nasihat terakhir aq , korunk take care and jgn percaya sgt pd lelaki and cinta .. be wiser and matured .. aq doakan kebhagiaan korunk sume .. sorry klu ade bt korunk cdey ..

For him that I admire secretly , I love u so much .. walaupon kaw x tau aq cintakan kaw tp ckup la kaw tau ptama kali aq jmpe ko aq suke cara kaw .. aq tau kaw playboy tp suatu ary nanti ko pasti akan berubah .. Thanks utk sgala kbhagiaan and kegembiraan yg kaw bg kat aq .. aq hargai sgt2 .. setiap detik kite kluar bersama , aq sematkan dlm hati .. smoga kaw mndapat jdoh yg baik2 .. :) aq syg ko ..

walaupon hati aq hncur sbb cinta , aq kecewa , aq merana , aq x pna hukum lelaki .. seriously aq x pandai mainkn perasaan org .. biarla aq cdey asalkan die bhagia .. sbb cinta itu suci .. x bek di buat permainan ..

kembali sengeh :)

Holaaa .. sudah lama itew x update blog .. yippey .. sudah lama mendiamkan diri .. menenangkn aty and perasaan .. and now , I'm kembali sengeh :)) triple like3 ...

orite , pic ni time dlm kete otw nak ke kuala selangor .. jauh perjalanan .. so bosan2 ue kuarkan camera and snap ! I'm so happy now .. Bless to Allah .. Alhamdulillah ..

selepas crush , bhong sgt la aq x frust .. frust menonggeng ue .. hahahahaa .. lepas clas ue , die xcident .. not my fault k .. its all about himself .. thanks time clash ue kaw maki2 aq :)) .. see , balasan ! da2 mls na cite pasal die .. mkin benci aq .. rite , smbung crita .. aq ade lawt die tp die mcm xnk tgk aq jer so aq wt bdo la .. thats my last day meet him .. yeah ! pomis pasni xnk jmpe ag da .. bnci sgt3 .. and the next week , aq g KL wit my fwenz Qila .. time clash ary sbtu ue aq kat KL gak .. balik cni dpt call die xcident .. sentap jgk la .. haahaahaa ..

hari-hariku kat KL memg best .. byk tempat la pg .. shopping ag .. hehehehe .. awesome !! byk gak aq bli .. kih3 .. oleh krana pas clash aq byk g jln2 , aq x frust sgt la .. ditemani lg dgn someone yg da lame adore aq .. oh ! so sweet .. everytime he say I like u 4 a long time and I love u and I miss u .. aq x brani nak kate pape tp aq da jtuh ati pd die .. siape die ?? secret .. wlaupon aq slalu maki2 die , die setia temani aq .. plik kn .. hehehee .. klu ade jdoh , ktaorg akan nikah .. doakn jela .. amin .. (die x nsem pon .. sumpah!)

and now , my life more happier and happiest .. tp kite x leh suke sgt .. mcm2 leh jd .. yg bleh aq ckp , aq da fobia cinta .. ceewaaahhh !! maybe korunk akn npak aq kuar ngn rmi org .. tp dlm rmi2 ue , slh seorg adelah 'die' .. yeah ! so senyum slalu .. :)))