I miss you

RINDU ITU MASIH BERTAKHTA DI DALAM HATI, CINTA ITU MASIH BERNYAWA DI DALAM DIRI

Aq da janji jd aq kne tepati .. dia berbisik di telingaku, jangan tinggalkan aq ye :) .. dan aq jawab ye .. entah knape, kerana dia aq tade perasaan kat lelaki lain .. skrg baru aq sedar jodoh bukan milik kita jd aq teruskan hidup untuk capai cita-cita aq .. sebagai seorg teman, sahabat , sudah semestinya akan merasa sedih bila orang kita syang bersama org lain .. bagi aq, kesedihan aq sudah tamat .. dan skrg, aq kne blaja bgkit semula .. sedih sgt .. kerana aq kuatkan hati, aq jadi seperti dulu kala ..hari2 aq bahagia tp hati aq menagis kesedihan .. aq xnk lari lagi .. kali ni aq nk hadapinya ..

setiap kali berhadapan dgn die, hati aq berdegup kencang .. tangan aq menggigil kesejukan .. masa tu aq nak menangis depan dia .. Ya Allah, betapa aq rindu akn dirinya .. sbb dia aq jd seorg yg kuat .. aq nk kuat mcm dia .. redha dgn segala kegagalan dan percaya Allah sentiasa  ada bersama umatnya .. kini, hati aq tertutup utk semua lelaki ..klu bleh aq nk tgu dudanya .. tp aq fikir baik aq blaja btol2 dan sambung blaja kat luar negara .. kerana itu yg terbaik utk aq melarikan diri .. kerana cinta, aq tewas .. baru aq pham ape artinya cinta .. cinta aq hanya utk kaw seorang .. 

Allah menciptakan manusia berpasang-pasangan .. setiap manusia ada pasangan .. jadi hargailah dia yang ade di depan mata sbelum terlepas mcm aq .. 

-aq pasrah, aq redha-

-tiba masanya cari teman pengganti-

Tonight, I let myself fall ;(

This is me .. love let someone I love the most go and now I'm feel worse .. GOD forgive me :( I have to because they're not mine anymore .. that night, I'm crying and  crying and crying .. my study messing and I let my tears fell down .. all night, all day I'm crying .. what should I do to make you be mine .. and now, I'm gone .. oh ! my world like dizzying and I take my pill so finally I feel a sleep .. hey dear, I'm dreaming about you .. why your face like that ?? why you look so dumb and sad .. are u okey honey?? but it is a dream .. In my real world, I can't say that to  you , I can't touch you anymore because you belong to someone .. hey dude ! I miss you .. I want see you and say I miss  you .. why you leave me ??

and I said Astagfirullahalazim .. don't be like this anis .. you shouldn't say that .. let them go .. just go on with your study .. and then, I had fever almost 2 weeks .. I miss you .. I have bought something for you .. here ! a gift .. wow ! I can belief I bought you that .. In my life, I've never bought gift for a men .. hahahaha .. first time dude .. I hope you like it .. and we're best friends forever right ?? and so .. I will always love you as a friends :)

My name is Nurul Anisah bte Ngadiman

Love is killed, smile is antidote

smile can cure any disease and make our life brighter ! yuhuuuu .. make your life beautiful because it can make you more beautiful .. think positive and be more open minded .. don't stressed your life and make a healthy life .. by the way, my name is like I typed there .. In malacca, they call me anis while in Johore, they call me nisa .. I prefer use both name so u all can call me whatever as long as it nice to heard .. My life is so complicated .. my principle, don't bother  your study with your personal problem .. put away your personal thinking when study .. let it flew through the air .. make your life simple and nice :)

as a human, nobody can regardless from problems right ?? same with me .. so many problem have, so many conflict have and I feel like want to die .. Astagfirullahalazim .. quickly express  yourself if you think about that .. tested that given by Allah is for our goodness .. He want us learn how to life in difficult way .. every problems have it own solution .. Alhamdulillah, I can through it with iman .. that is my strength .. Allah is the Great .. 

Anis..... some of kindly simple name which means soft but behind there has its high strength .. to be someone like me is not easy as people can see .. no one knows my problems .. they only know when I told them .. my friends always call me 'sayur' because I'm quite soft enough .. people bullied me as they like .. so do I care ?? they can do whatever they want do but when my patience more than the limit, here you go .. you will regret .. hahahahahhaa .. 

I love making friends and travel around the world .. If I have much money, i want travel one Malaysia and I love Paris .. Eiffel Tower is my dream .. but I know, I can't go there as reason I'm not feeling well .. there's something I keep  a long time ago .. what I know, I want make everyone proud of me when I was gone .. hey girls ! I miss u all damn much .. lets set a date ..love u all .. don't forget me k .. I will miss them inside of my heart .. because of them I still alive here ..

anis is my nickname .. nisa is my nickname too .. I love that name .. I want be a good girl ..for you, I'll survive .. I hope you will happy then :)

-missing miss-

When I Be Someone :)

In this world, I was born in a good family .. my mom so fierce, my dad so kind .. I'm grateful born in this family .. when I was small, my life not as rich as now .. but my dad never disappointed me with his eager want his family life easily and happy .. I love when my dad pamper me since I was young until now .. mom and dad are my everything .. when someone told bad about my family, I'll punch them .. they deserve that kick from me .. I had that idiot thing  happen .. sorry for those who got punch and slap from me .. serve your right ! when I was in standard school, my friends like insult me .. they always said I'm a chicken seller .. so, am I care ! as long as it is HALAL against ALLAH'S rule ..just go to hell with your stupid statement dude ! finally what he get from me, a slap from me with full of my energy .. hahahahhahahaa .. I love when you look surprised .. so cute you know .. like chic ! 

when I was in primary school, urghhhh ! I hate my primary school .. doesn't like it !!!!!

now I'm study in University .. Praise to Allah, I be a student again .. thanks to my parents always pray for my success and I'll make sure they will proud of me one day with my graduation .. huuuaaaa !! I love them much3 ... no boys, no love, no cry .. I want be myself .. daddy and mummy, don't forget to search my Mr. Right .. hihiii .. I hope our life will be happy forever and ever until Jannah .. Insyaallah .. and I will be a good daughter of En. Ngadiman and Pn. Hasimahyon .. 

-THE END-

SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW ..

... wish u were here ...

I wish u were here with me today, tonight, tomorrow, now and forever .. I have waited for you for the longest time and I wish we will had happy ending .. I don't know my feeling towards you .. I don't know why I eagerly want you .. It is I'm crazy of you ?? I don't know .. I'm confuse right now .. What are your feeling towards me ?? Am I that u love ?? I really love you .. But I can't tell you .. I know u love somebody else .. 

From now, I'll always waiting for you even one day I'll hurt .. I always pray that u'll be mine  one fine day .. I wanna be happy with you forever until Jannah .. U know my heart always  want u be my side .. make me smile is your passion .. When u don't pick up my phone , answer my messages, I feel lonely , lost and sad .. Why should I had that feeling ?? I don't understand about this feeling .. I couldn't find the answer ..

Hope is my last wish .. hope that u'll find me in your heart sooner or later .. I'll wait for you .. someone that I love deep in my heart ..

Ya Allah,aq bersyukur ..

        Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Semua :)
Bersyukur kita masih lagi bernyawa di dunia ini .. masih mampu menyambut bulan penuh kesyukuran bersama yang tersayang .. tentulah ibu bapa kita gembira dapat sambut puasa sama-II anak-anaknya .. itulah ayah saya .. walaupun sibuk,dia tetap jemput saya kat UITM MELAKA ptg td .. memg tharu gler la .. sbb ibu imform td ibu yang akan jemput sy sbb ayah busy tp x sangka la ayh pon ada skali .. happy sgt3 .. terima kasih ayah .. 


Di bulan yg pnuh mulia ini,sy nak mohon maaf kalau ada buat salah dalam sedar atau pon x kan .. manusia sentiasa buat silap .. maafkan kite ye .. ngee~~ smoga mndpt berkat dr Allah .. aminn ..

pahit mana kesakitan itu akan aq telan :)

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku , jika ini senyuman terakhir aku , biarlah menjadi senyuman yg terakhir buat tatapan sahabat yg paling aq sayangi serta ahli keluargaku .. sesungguhnye aku tak mampu menolak segala ketentuan yg telah ditakdirkan utkku .. :(

Senyuman ini khas untuk korunk sume :) aq syg korunk ketat2 .. aq mara korunk sbb aq syg .. aq tegur korunk sbb aq nk btolkan keadaan .. slama aq hdup , ade pahit ade manisnye .. yg pahit aq telan yg manis aq bt kenangan .. kdg2 aq asik tpkir , da smpai ke ajal aq ni ? ye , waktu utk aq da singkat .. tp aq slalu bdoa smoga Allah pnjgkan umur aq .. ramai org cakap aq pmpuan yg kuat tp hati aq lembut kdg2 .. mencintai die dlm hdup aq mrupakan 1 kesalahan .. tp aq redha .. cinta aq ikhlas utk org yg benar2 nak bkenalan dgn aq :)

Aq syg semua kawan2 aq , always by my side .. korunk , aq minta maaf klu ade sketkn aty korunk .. aq x sengaja .. aq nak jge korunk , aq xnk korunk tersesat .. nak enjoy , enjoy la tp jge batas .. remember , Allah see what we do .. nasihat terakhir aq , korunk take care and jgn percaya sgt pd lelaki and cinta .. be wiser and matured .. aq doakan kebhagiaan korunk sume .. sorry klu ade bt korunk cdey ..

For him that I admire secretly , I love u so much .. walaupon kaw x tau aq cintakan kaw tp ckup la kaw tau ptama kali aq jmpe ko aq suke cara kaw .. aq tau kaw playboy tp suatu ary nanti ko pasti akan berubah .. Thanks utk sgala kbhagiaan and kegembiraan yg kaw bg kat aq .. aq hargai sgt2 .. setiap detik kite kluar bersama , aq sematkan dlm hati .. smoga kaw mndapat jdoh yg baik2 .. :) aq syg ko ..

walaupon hati aq hncur sbb cinta , aq kecewa , aq merana , aq x pna hukum lelaki .. seriously aq x pandai mainkn perasaan org .. biarla aq cdey asalkan die bhagia .. sbb cinta itu suci .. x bek di buat permainan ..